Stephen Paul, aka DAPPA Heslop

1985 - 2007
LocationSouth Shields
Age22 years
Cause of DeathSuicide
Date of Birth27/06/1985
Date of Death26/12/2007
Visitors15,592 since 28/12/2007
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stephen 'dappa' heslop
suddenly taken from us on boxing day 2007 in tragic circumstances, always in our hearts never ever will you be forgotten

Dappa, you were a good one, always brought a smile to our faces had so much love for your friends and family... not a bad bone in your body mate!!! i will never forget you, as you will always be in my heart... my love goes out to all the Costello and Heslop family, the hill will not be the same without you.....

the song coat of many colours has been requested by jean, stephens mum,
dappa your missed more and more each day by your mum, your brothers lee and jak, and your many friends and family!!!

a tribute from Stephens Mum Jean

I just want to say thankyou to the many lovely people who are leaving tributes and lighting candles for Stephen. It means a lot to all his loving family.
We are all having a hard time coming to terms with the way Stephen took his life. He was more desperate to end the nightmare he was living through, than we knew.
His friend said he had more guts than anyone hed ever known and proved this to the end. Stephen self harmed and had tried previously to end his life. He took an overdose on xmas eve but the hospital discharged him at 3pm on xmas day even after Stephen told the nurse, 'if you send me home now, ill do it again but properly' sadly they didnt listen and just over 24 hours later Stephen drove over cliffs at the local beauty spot where many good friends have gone before him. You can not have a mental health problem on weekends or bank holidays and especially at Christmas. Now Christmas will never be the same for Our families because they chose not to take Stephen serious!

Stephen was born 4 years after his brother Lee and he was a beautiful child with big brown eyes and white blonde hair. He was always happy and well behaved. He was so close to Lee as they grew up and they would always do anything for each other. His illness didnt show until his teens but throughout the problems he had he was a very loyal kind boy. We went on to have his second brother,Jak when he was 14 and he loved Jak so much. He would take him out and spoil him and he would enjoy babysitting him. Jaks told me some stories about what they got up to and i have to laugh. Like Stephen raiding my tin with a knife to get a chinkeys for them. Id saved £2 coins for ages and thought i should have had more when i emptied it! As Stephen got older and grew into a man the problems got worse and we had some right fights but we got over them and we were just at the point of a breakthrough as he had been diagnosed so all his family were looking to the future for him. The night before he died he told his aunty he just wanted to be normal and have a girlfriend and a baby like Lee. Lee has a little girl, Madison whos nearly 2 and Stephen adored her and i know he would have been a fantastic Daddy. He also loved all his family and would always be the first one to help when he was needed.
My only hope now is that Stephen has got the peace he so deserved. He has left lots of brilliant memories and in time they will far outweigh the bad times. His life was short but he crammed lots into it and he will never ever be forgotten.
In time i will share more of the fun times as he had a great knack of making people laugh. Love and hugs to you son from mam, Lee n Jak and all your family. We miss you more than words can sayxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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4 years!

Well son thats the 4th anniversary of your leaving us over....where has the time gone? It is as raw as ever and Christmas doesn't get any better and i don't suppose it ever will.....i still think about you every single day and talk about you all the time....i can't help it as you were my life aswell and will always be a big part of it....i love you to much to ever forget you xxxxxxxxxx

Jean Costello (Mam)

December 29, 2011

Guardian Angel!!

Stephen son your mams been in a bit of a scrape but ive come out ok as my guardian ANGEL was with me for sure......you come up trumps for us!!!! I love n miss you as much as ever xxxx

Jean Costello (Mam)

October 7, 2011

Lees Big Day1

Stephen, i hope you are here with us all the way today.....your big brother Lee is getting engaged to Sarah......It's such a bittersweet day without you son......You get yourself sorted and be there for 7......see you on the dance floor handsome, loved and longed for as always xxxxx

Jean Costello (Mam)

July 30, 2011

My lovely handsome son....i know you are with me every step of the way in my fight for justice for you.....Well it's starting to come together now so you will be smiling down on us and laughing at them!....you know me Stephen, i am strong willed and won't ever give up.......I love you and miss you so much son and think about you every day of my life....I hide well behind my smile but the ache in my heart never leaves me, your everloving Mam xxxxxxx

Jean Costello (Mam)

July 8, 2011

ღ ღ ღ All My Love Beautiful Angel ღ ღ ღ

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*ღ..........ღ* *ღHeavenly *ღ..........ღ* *ღ shona sengupta. ..ღ*
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How will heaven be?
As far as I can see
It will have huge bells
And will be situated on clouds
It will have many golden wells
That will so often swell
Rain will be abundant
And the sun will shine all day long
Angels will play on the harp
The sweetest summer song
Music that will touch the heart
While those beneath will shed drops of sorrow
Little will they know what will happen on the morrow
But to them up above
As plain and clear it will be
As far as far as I can see
Yes there will be misty alleys
And lush green meadows
Fresh with the fragrant smell of spring
Winter will never be bitter
Summer never so hot
Autumn never so bare
And resources never so scarce
Food for all will be relished by all.
Grateful we’ll be as grateful can be
Mountains high and strong and brown
Surrounding that hidden land,
Beautiful and vast seas I see
There colour as blue as sapphire can be
And the white waves lashing upon the shore
Sitting on the flattened grey rocks
Who would not call it absolutely heavenly?
However it might actually be,
But can we still not see
There will lie behind this seen
A relieving feeling of bliss
For where not have we been
But is this not by all believed
That after one’s decease
This is the land of eternal peace
Where we all ultimately reach?
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Sylvie Belanger

June 28, 2011

Happy Angel Birthday son.

Well another birthday is here, can't believe it's the 4th one away from home.....I prayer with all my heart that you are dancing with the Angels son and are truely happy.....Deeply Deeply loved and longed for as always, your broken Mam and brothers Lee n Jak and all your loving family xxxxxxxx

Jean Costello (Mam)

June 27, 2011

Sorry!

Hi Son, well what a shock yesterday to receive an apology from the hospital!!!...three and a half years to late...to say i was gutted is an understatement but i do feel a sense of relief at the same time.....nothings ever gonna bring you back but it's what i have fought so hard for and as you know i am not a quitter!!...i see everything through to the end......we have had good news recently so this sort of adds to it....our lucks beginning to change...i hope your so happy up there in heaven for Lee n Sarah!!!....Madison is so big now and knows exactly where you are and she understands a little more now.....she always kisses your photo when she visits your resting place...it comes natural to her!.......well son you keep being the lovely abgel that you always were and watch over all of us and take good care of our friends up there...you know who they are!....love you till the twelth of never xxxxxxxx

Jean Costello (Mam)

June 11, 2011

Just to let you know that am thinking of you Stephen and of your mam - always do though but you probably know that. Please do me a speical favour if you can and help my sister to make sure that our little christi has the best of birthdays tomorrow - i'm glad that she has bigger angels like you and my sister to take care of her and to make her laugh - i know that you're one of the best big brothers ever (along with your Lee of course!) - maybe you could share some of that big brother magic with our little one tomorrow. I miss them so much but I know you & my Emma will be having a great time up there. Keep close to your mam and brothers but I know that you do that anyway xxx

Nicky Smith

May 11, 2011

HI Son

Hi Stephen son......just stopped by to say how much i love you..i miss you as much today as i did yesterday and every day before!!!......i will always keep your memory well and truely alive my gorgeous middle son........hope you like your litle present and i see your shades are still there!......i bet you were enjoying a party in heaven today with Lady Di!! She will love you son as we all do......chin up chest out Stephen, your everloving Mam and brothers Lee n Jak xxx

Jean Costello (Mam)

April 29, 2011

Hi Son

Just wanna tell you i think about you each and every day Stephen....there won't ever be a day when your not in my mind at some point.....too deeply loved to ever be forgotten........If all the world was mine to give!!! If only eh!. Sleep tight special angel, your everloving Mam n brothers Lee n Jak.....massive snuggles from your Mads xxxxxx

Jean Costello (Mam)

February 16, 2011
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