| Location | South Shields |
| Age | 22 years |
| Cause of Death | Suicide |
| Date of Birth | 27/06/1985 |
| Date of Death | 26/12/2007 |
| Visitors | 10,244 since 28/12/2007 |
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stephen 'dappa' heslop
suddenly taken from us on boxing day 2007 in tragic circumstances, always in our hearts never ever
will you be forgotten
Dappa, you were a good one, always brought a smile to our faces had so much love for your friends
and family... not a bad bone in your body mate!!! i will never forget you, as you will always be in
my heart... my love goes out to all the Costello and Heslop family, the hill will not be the same
without you.....
the song coat of many colours has been requested by jean, stephens mum,
dappa your missed more and more each day by your mum, your brothers lee and jak, and your many
friends and family!!!
a tribute from Stephens Mum Jean
I just want to say thankyou to the many lovely people who are leaving tributes and lighting candles
for Stephen. It means a lot to all his loving family.
We are all having a hard time coming to terms with the way Stephen took his life. He was more
desperate to end the nightmare he was living through, than we knew.
His friend said he had more guts than anyone hed ever known and proved this to the end. Stephen self
harmed and had tried previously to end his life. He took an overdose on xmas eve but the hospital
discharged him at 3pm on xmas day even after Stephen told the nurse, 'if you send me home now, ill
do it again but properly' sadly they didnt listen and just over 24 hours later Stephen drove over
cliffs at the local beauty spot where many good friends have gone before him. You can not have a
mental health problem on weekends or bank holidays and especially at Christmas. Now Christmas will
never be the same for Our families because they chose not to take Stephen serious!
Stephen was born 4 years after his brother Lee and he was a beautiful child with big brown eyes and
white blonde hair. He was always happy and well behaved. He was so close to Lee as they grew up and
they would always do anything for each other. His illness didnt show until his teens but throughout
the problems he had he was a very loyal kind boy. We went on to have his second brother,Jak when he
was 14 and he loved Jak so much. He would take him out and spoil him and he would enjoy babysitting
him. Jaks told me some stories about what they got up to and i have to laugh. Like Stephen raiding
my tin with a knife to get a chinkeys for them. Id saved £2 coins for ages and thought i should
have had more when i emptied it! As Stephen got older and grew into a man the problems got worse and
we had some right fights but we got over them and we were just at the point of a breakthrough as he
had been diagnosed so all his family were looking to the future for him. The night before he died he
told his aunty he just wanted to be normal and have a girlfriend and a baby like Lee. Lee has a
little girl, Madison whos nearly 2 and Stephen adored her and i know he would have been a fantastic
Daddy. He also loved all his family and would always be the first one to help when he was needed.
My only hope now is that Stephen has got the peace he so deserved. He has left lots of brilliant
memories and in time they will far outweigh the bad times. His life was short but he crammed lots
into it and he will never ever be forgotten.
In time i will share more of the fun times as he had a great knack of making people laugh. Love and
hugs to you son from mam, Lee n Jak and all your family. We miss you more than words can
sayxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
STEPHEN
MY DARLING STEPHEN, TODAY I CAN'T COPE WITHOUT YOU. ITS NOW 18 MONTHS NEARLY SINCE YOU KILLED YOURSELF AND THIS GRIEF IS SO IMMENSE. I JUST WANT TO BE WITH YOU BECAUSE I MISS YOU SO SO MUCH. SOMETIMES I GET FED UP OF PAINTING THIS STUPID SMILE ON AND CLOWNING AROUND LIKE I DO PRETENDING THAT IM FINE, WHEN INSIDE IM CRUSHED AND BROKEN WITHOUT MY CHILD. I SHOULD HAVE DIED WHEN I WAS ILL WHEN YOU LAY ON THE FLOOR AT THE FOOT OF MY BED 4 YEARS AGO.....HIM UPSTAIRS MUST HAVE HAD OTHER IDEAS! HE KEPT ME HERE TO SUFFER IM SURE! PLEASE HAVE A WORD!!!! I'M SORRY IF THIS UPSETS YOU SON BUT PLEASE COME AND SEE ME AND GIVE ME A BIT OF YOUR AMAZING STRENGTH TO HELP ME THROUGH THESE DARK DAYS. I NEED YOU SON COS I AM LOST WITHOUT YOU XXXXXXXX
I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU x
If i should stay
I would only be in your way
So i'll go, but i know
I'll think of you
Every step of the way
AND I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU
I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU
Bitter sweet memories
Thats all i'm taking with me
Goodbye, please don't cry
We both know that i'm not what you need
AND I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU
I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU
I hope life treats you kind
And i hope you have all you ever dreamed of
And i wish you joy and happiness
But above all this i wish you LOVE
AND I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU
I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU
I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU XXXX
STEPHEN
Hi son, its a lovely sunny day again and its getting real hard as your birthday approaches!
Jaks going for councelling at last as we think he maybe needs it now. If hes ok after hes spoken to someone then well n good but weve got to make sure he grows up ok and copes with your loss.
Madison is here and you would be so enjoying her. What a beauty she is. She still says your name only better. Just the other day she got my locket and kissed your photo and called your name.
They say times a healer but believe me son its not as it doesnt get better we just learn to cope a bit better. Theres not a single day when your not thought about. We love you 4ever and a day son, Mam, Lee n Jakxxxxxx Big xxxxxxxxxxxxx off Madison xxxxxx
Hi son
Hi my darling angel......Hope your enjoying the sunshine in paradise. Its awful here without you, more so when the suns shinning and your not here with your trademark shades on!
A lovely young girl spoke to me last night who knew you, called Kate. She was really upset and told me she looks on here every day. Ive told her to write something for you if she wants........So many people come and speak to me about you Stephen. You may be gone but your memory will never because i talk about you every single day. You will never know how deeply your missed son. Rob White still misses you badly.
Im just waiting for Jak to come back from the cemetary then im taking him to the marine park just like i used to take you and Lee. You watch over Lee as he is offshore and has to shuttle on the chopper every day! All our love to you son, Mam, Lee n Jak and big hugs from your Mads xxxxxx
Hi son
Well its happened again! The Bede wing! crisis team! suicide!......im trying so hard to stop it but i feel im failing Stephen as so many have died through them......Ive been ok but the news of another death is soul destroying!
You stay by my side cos you know how much of a fighter i am and i will win this one for you and thats a promise son, love you and miss you soo much always and forever xxx
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I looked towards the clouds today
And for a moment saw your face.
I wondered just where you have gone
With hope it's a better place.
Did you show yourself to me today,
To tell me you're all right?
Or was it just a daydream
Playing tricks upon my sight?
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3RD MAY 2009
♡ The Hearts Library..... ♡
By Sarah Blackstone.
Imagine if I was given one moment,
just a single slice of my past.
I could hold it close forever,
and that moment would always last.
Id put the moment in a safe,
within my hearts abode.
I could open it when I wanted,
and only I would know the code.
I could choose a time of laughing,
a time of happiness and fun.
I could choose a time that tried me,
through everything I've done.
I sat and thought about what moment,
would always make me smile.
One that would always push me,
to walk that extra mile.
If I'm feeling sad and low,
if I'm struggling with what to do.
I can go and open my little safe,
and watch my moment through.
There are moments I can think of,
that would lift my spirits everytime.
The moments when you picked me up,
when the road was hard to climb.
For me to only pick one moment,
to cherish, save and keep,
Is proving really difficult,
as I've gathered up a heap!
I've dug deep inside my heart,
found the safe and looked inside,
there was room for lots of moments,
in fact hundreds if I tried.
Am building my own little library,
embedded in my heart,
for all the moments spent with you,
before you had to part.
I can open it up whenever I like,
pick a moment and watch it through,
My little library acts as a promise,
I'll never ever forget you
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LOVE JUDE. X
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My Son x
Stephen......I attended a meeting today with STNHS.
It was about SUICIDE PREVENTION! I gave it my best shot along with Les Thompson, whos 70 yr old mother in law died at the cliffs like you! We let the suits hear real storys from real people. You ticked every box on the papers they had drawn up for people at high risk for suicide. The people we met with were visibly shocked by what we had to say. They dont know the half of it son! I am feeling very depressed now as it pulls me down so much but i will carry on so that you havnt died in vain.
Its Jaks 10th birthday tomorrow and hes just asked who the card is off on the microwave......Its off you son!
Tomorrows a new day so i will say night night now and start again tomorrow! Love you STEPHEN xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx I miss you more than anyone will ever knowxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
The gloves are off son!
Hi my precious angel.
Your mam fought your corner today with the NHS!! The nurse who decided to introduce herself to me as Nikki from the bede wing then went on to call you to me(in a pub) is digging a deeper hole for herself by lying and denying it now. Well i will fill the hole in son. They failed you when you were alive and continue to! big mistake! I am off to a HIDDEN TREASURE meeting soon so we know the agenda!
We are still struggling here without you son but we carry on as we have to.......Sleep tight Stephen, love as always xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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